dazdreams

2010-07-23T10:48:00.001+08:00

love, i dont feel it no more..

2010-07-23T10:46:00.000+08:00

i want to die so frigging bad

2010-05-07T06:02:00.004+08:00

i have fallen for a china lady ... stupidity or whatever it is ... i cant believe myself either ... though i know shes older than me alot of all reasons shes a frigging china .. im happy ... i feel alive. .........thanks Tina .

2010-04-30T05:26:00.001+08:00

indebted to cheena's. my , if only i have a sis like her =(

2010-04-30T05:14:00.003+08:00

i just want to be alone , im sorry .

2010-04-30T05:06:00.002+08:00

its been so long ....

2010-02-10T16:43:00.001+08:00

2010-01-31T01:17:00.001+08:00

i dont know whats 'love' anymore.

2010-01-23T19:00:00.001+08:00

its been a year ... i guess ....

2009-12-21T03:04:00.003+08:00

its hurting me alot ,cause i've fallen in to a bottomless pit ... the same nightmare repeating itself every night .. so much wanted to be like normal friend at least ... i just wanna say hi ? how have you been?... i tried so hard to keep a distance from you .. but i just cant helped looking at you ,peeking at a corner .sigh, reading your blog sure hurts me even deeper ... . its going a year the unbearable pain is killing me slowly ... i hope you made the correct choice ... hes a bad choice .. but still i wish you happiness .....

i miss you ..

2009-12-11T00:56:00.001+08:00

yesterday powerhouse.
today bbdc.
later changi hospital
sat changi hospital .

MONDAY BUKIT PANJAN KIYO ~

whats this feeling ... alamax how to describe it lei .. hmm......

anyway ...

2009-11-22T00:25:00.001+08:00

When we broke up, you said you'd always love me.
Always, you said, always we'd be friends.
But soon I saw you wanted nothing of me,
And then I understood that's how it ends.
You said, "Well, it's much harder than I thought."
I guess it's always easier to lie.
You said, "Well, ask me anything you want."
But I was much too frightened to ask why.
I guess it doesn't matter why we failed,
Or why I love you after what you've done,
Or why the harshest truths must be unveiled
After the last train has come and gone.
I miss you and I love you, even though
What happened lies too deep for me to know.

2009-11-16T02:33:00.001+08:00

so... so.... z

2009-10-24T12:36:00.000+08:00

WOOooOohOooOoo

2009-10-16T11:08:00.001+08:00

fuking dog

2009-10-13T19:16:00.003+08:00

woo weeks back almost accident at 190km/hr with david.. engine biang we were trapped somewhere in bke LOL heng bo buang if not sure die ...

today ... accident somewhere at sp wif rui ..
long story ..

seeing you go , seeing you love someone else pain's me more than anything ....
sigh..

2009-10-12T11:43:00.001+08:00

when It's clear that you don't feel the same way for me... the problem is that as much as I can't force you to love me, I can't force myself to stop loving you

2009-10-10T23:58:00.005+08:00

z why.
do you guys think its a bad idea? (well i didt stalk her nor call or even talk to her online ever since she got hitched again as theres no point stressing her or stop her from being happy)..

I just dun wan her to hate me at the end of the day..

i guess dealing with pain and regrets is part of growing up ...

2009-10-09T22:45:00.004+08:00

its my chiense bdae today despite being such a bad son , my ' DAD ' . only she know how my dad is . he cook mee sua +2 egg dunno hw many billion stick satay's and angbao for me . lolololol . happy =D

im going off play lan ~

blah blah ~

2009-10-08T03:20:00.003+08:00

have been working for the past week's yet i spend more than what i earn . sigh when will i ever save up enough .. oh im working at bpp im damn happy not because its near my place but because its super 'slack'.

ting , what ever your facing now i hope the best for you .

sigh.
mentally disturbed

nightmare repeating over and over and over..

2009-10-01T12:48:00.000+08:00

i still love you.

2009-09-21T00:58:00.006+08:00

20'09 2009 [ 2009 2009 ]

my birthday happens to fall on the most special day of the year , just notice it though LOL.
oh ...

not forgetting Clara ,Deep,Reira,jinli & weijie for wishing me as well .

And thanks for being there last night and yea i love the cake , yummlicious .

Levall,Xuanrui,Shihao,David,Ben,Pei Xian & Hui Tong .

a big

THANKS
to every single one of you

2009-09-19T23:06:00.003+08:00

went jb this noon , got my shisha . personal shisha haha now i can smoke whenever i want just great !

seems that my mum completely forgotten my bdae .
aiya no angbao tak egg meesua eat pork leg chew =((

Guess my bdae wish ? LOL

im going sbw beach alone i guess ! so excited lol .. should i bring tent or not abit bulky lei hmm maybe groundsheet will be fine ...

sigh.

2009-09-19T19:28:00.005+08:00

The only thing that keeps me alive..
Is my crushed twisted little dream..
That someday..
I might make it out, alright..

do you rmb?

2009-09-18T16:26:00.007+08:00

Mon

had bbq at bugis with awesome people
from right
TONG,DUS,DOSE,DOPE,DAZ,DOG,LEVALL,DAVID,XIAN

brought 2 gift's for myself a cactus keychain & a blue alien softtoy'keychain

tuesday

Cmpb , temp drop to pes D for 3month's ..
why?..

after that went shopping alone
very first time i shop alone ... lol zzzzzzzzzzzzzz

WED

ting&xr gf tong drop by bukit panjan "surprised" .
thank's for coming down all the way till sunrise =D
bukit panjan sure is boring right ?

Thursday

went in Malaysia for nearly 12hour's

met 2 guy they kana accident at Malaysia poor fellow's hope ya doing well now.

since Tuesday i have been thinking how i celebrated my bdae last year
i've got no clues ....

There is a time for departure even when there's no certain place to go.
...

2009-09-16T17:13:00.001+08:00

I hate what you've made me, a crazy freak in love with someone who doesn't even care, a person that will always be there, whenever you need me just go ahead and call, cause i wont let you down, after all your the one thing in life i cant live without

2009-09-14T14:07:00.004+08:00

awesome dream .

oh im not working this whole week . Have to go cmpb alone tml sigh so far so early ...... hais
Yesterday someone told me did anyone tell you before you look lik " wu zhun " ?
i was like is that an insult ? . i replied her if i look wu zhun already got gf liao ..LOL.zzz

sigh dont know want go bugis not , stay home sian . go have to go alone summore .

You've carried the guilt, the shame for long enough. You've kept your wounds open for long enough. The time has to come to let go, to heal. Keep the lessons and let the pain heal. Yes, you know what we are talking about it.

why ...

2009-09-10T01:02:00.003+08:00

ok how " heng " yesterday went in malaysia step tio dead bird nvm and i was like " hey how come the floor so soft " ... today kana birdshit . took at long bath .. fuk ..

after exams went work stright .. ah i think i might do well in this exam .

its great day at work though more new fwens . and yea.. her

random stuff again me talk dunno wad

ok . we were talking about being single and in r/s the advantage's etc

i guess being attach is good also la someone that will always be by yourside share your burden sayang you etc .

when your single . sad , stress wadeva it is .. is your own problem .
blah blah .

nites.

i wanna see you suffer in pain .
ah.

2009-09-08T13:36:00.003+08:00

ok im off today have to study tml exams . and

you fail to entertain me miserably.

2009-09-06T17:41:00.007+08:00

finally handed in my frigging Web Tech Project ! left another report im done !
and yea great exams this coming wed despite that im working tml , super broke now . Working Location Will be at Yishun,BukitPanjan,Parkway,Yishun . 1 full month of work!
i haven been going for my bike lessons stuck at 1.03 , lazy lor .
and yea cant wait to start work so enjoyable though the long hours of standing really strains me up alittle . Still considering this wed going St.James or Butter any suggestion ?

i want to be better .. i want to be successful .
what ever it is ive to compelete my bike first by this year .
then ... HAHA

im going for a yamaha brand new bike r15 , 6k bike price + etc around 7.5k .
downpayment should be around 1.8k i suppose ? =\ hmm...
very nice ride smaller version of R1

2 weeks more to my birthday
super busy with so much things lately
the last trip to beach is around feb . more than half a year nv go liao .
family friends , the next closest thing to me is the beach of cause .
I have always loved the beach. The smell of the salty water, the wind in my face, the gentle roar of the waves all combine to create a sense of peace and calm
thought of setting up tent there and relax the day myself alone
Let your waves crash down on me and take me away
cant wait !! =DD

i want to walk at night along the beach, writing bad blank verse and searching endlessly for someone wonderful who would step out of the darkness and change my life.

brain nt functioning again . gotta study
bye for now
so wrong / sigh
gonna shut this blog soon for good .

2009-09-01T23:23:00.003+08:00

despite being held back by so much stuff's im still enjoying my day playing games and going malaysia once in every few days . I not very Happy the way im in now .. Project due a week ago try to prefect it just dont feel so ' motivated ' . Finishing a frigging project in a night is crazy .
Hey im still gaming LOL . Ive choose this route whats ever ahead i will faced it now heads on ..

my bdae coming soon. sigh.. i hope.. it will be enjoyable somehow ? guess i will be sleeping at home .. this year everythings different ..

2009-08-29T15:53:00.000+08:00

that kind of friend ...

you will regret in future

2009-08-18T03:29:00.001+08:00

aww yes . project due date next friday . oh my oh my . actually i got plenty of free time just that im too lazy to do so .
i need more motivation =D .
shes my power .

have been staying out late as usual and yea i kinda miss you .. alot actually . that electro feeling sitting just next to you the look in your eyes . aww shiok ! =X

and yea shes ting' =D

sorry don't mean to plane you twice . im very very sorry .

my money spend like water . luckily coming sep got job again .

should i go on a holiday hongkong 1 month or work ?

lastly to her .
though all those mean words you said earlier on . though i dont understand whats going on
.
i believed you dont mean it .

nite's people
miss ting =D
and fuk blogger

2009-08-11T07:21:00.000+08:00

confused . oh well =D

2009-08-07T22:07:00.003+08:00

i feel much better after confessing so much things down in me , haha .
im sorry about yesterday didnt know you would mind so much , i will be different.
sry ><

im so happy to see you yesterday through we merely talk at all . but yea =DDDDDDD

oh TT ~ sometimes i wonder if life is really worth it, then I see you smile and I know it is

2009-08-06T13:33:00.000+08:00

yea finally got my $800 but the amount almost flatten liao .
deposit $350 down in my bbdc account =D. hopefully kiyo pay comes today !
and yea skipping school alot like usual .
have been going out , doing stupid things down the road .
i would describe my life ' exciting ' .

and baby girl im glad knowing you cant wait to see you again , SOON!

hitting town tonight i guess ? =D

and ... =D

2009-08-05T19:16:00.000+08:00

im glad ; ]

2009-08-03T20:41:00.001+08:00

中了爱情的箭，心很痛啊！

2009-08-02T09:07:00.000+08:00

i was glad the girls were late and we didnt have to watch the haunting in Connecticut .
Based on a true story, "The Haunting In Connecticut" one family's real-life encounter with the dark forces of the supernatural.

am going work , mum wash both my black polo's have to iron it to dry luh z .

hopefully xuanxuan will pick me back home today form east coast HAHA

2009-08-02T04:26:00.000+08:00

ok , I thought when love for you died, I should
die. Alone, strangely, I live on

2009-07-30T20:06:00.000+08:00

its been awhile since i last posted something ' long ' .

tomorrow ill be attending my very first bike prat lessons , nervous lei .

co's say bao pass one la .

i wanted a bike so badly at least i got my own transport .

finally got my $800 , NO minus $400 off my phone bill's left with $400

$400 + kiyo pay = ? $800 .

i got enough to complete my bike lesson's + leisure and shirts etc .

just got 2 pair of shoes though . HAHA !

sigh . how are you ?

2009-07-29T09:05:00.002+08:00

great 5 days of lesson i pon 4 days. haha
finally got my $800 , waiting for my kiyo pay now around $300?.
saw my singtel bill $500 m1 bill $100+ .
sigh. still need to spend a big sum on my project .

bike bike bike .
my first prat lesson's will be at this friday ;]
thank's alot to xuanrui for letting me play with his bike.

frigging dragon floss candy still in my freezer
wheres my fucking 'heart'?

2009-07-21T10:53:00.001+08:00

though its just a little

2009-07-20T00:45:00.002+08:00

great ,ill be working bike bike please come fast ~

2009-07-18T19:28:00.001+08:00

hmm i've gotten 2 packets of dragon floss candy . should i . not .

2009-07-17T20:06:00.002+08:00

as long i enjoy
i dont really care ; )

2009-07-17T14:43:00.000+08:00

2009-07-17T06:02:00.003+08:00

hell lots of fun .
went to this party at raffles there de hotel . Hotel Room , LOL. its Jessy bdae
cant remember the name of the hotel but its really high class , wow .
oh my so many things to talk about yea .
its been so long ^^..... well yea not gonna go in detail abit lazy now will upload the pics in my phone when i got the time meanwhile let the video do the talking .
Lots of fun great company , i just simply love it .
great knowing you guys ~

after that we went boat quay , headed tenth dimension . meet up with clare there had 2 jars there. Saw z'h , shes not really happy OO .
THEN left to huili's pub omg its been so long since i last saw you x;
im so excited when i see you lei , lmao .=x
im so frigging excited next sunday we are going out for a movie . HOR? lol. =x
i hope you quit that sickening job of yours TAK CARE OF YOUR BODY .
wonders if you read my blog not ? hmm.

uh ... we all left with a number each , just great . =)

2009-07-12T13:39:00.002+08:00

2009-07-12T05:31:00.003+08:00

st james ~ woot . ;] . ill be there more often i swear ~!

2009-07-10T07:13:00.001+08:00

HOME SWEET HOME , saw 2 accident .. incredible, i saw this lorry shattered all over the place .. well i guess i have to stay awake 1 hr more to sch ~ weet

2009-07-09T22:19:00.006+08:00

i found a job , no more time to fool around anymore.

5pm-2am . ~

free taxi transport home
$5.50 per hr for weekdays.
sat $8 , sun $10 .

haha cant imagine hows my day gonna be like .
super tired? sch at 8 work end at 2 . o m g
fuk love $$ means more than anything else

12-24 . 12 fuking days . aww.

starting this sunday i guess. when are we going to meet.

2009-07-09T22:00:00.002+08:00

2009-07-09T13:42:00.002+08:00

bloody headache .

monday pontan

tuesday , attended school
had lunch dinner steamboat with rosie dor dor , xuanxuan and zihui at bugis
wed . headache was home the whole night

z sian

2009-07-08T08:54:00.001+08:00

i hate sch

2009-07-07T07:06:00.001+08:00

i guess i wont be seeing you anymore.

this is life .

2009-07-07T00:30:00.005+08:00

Should've Said No , i Should've .

just woke up from a short 3 hr rest , oh well looks like i gonna have trouble sleeping later
cramps T_T

hey , girl . you know i just hope to see you more often cause i know at this rate its just
matter of time you will get a bf
eventually you will forget me,us as time passes .
just a few more times
that will do....

ever since we are separated, you make some cool friends to hangout with
yea, kinda .... to see how much you changed.

you didnt even ask me out not even once . haha .

i know its not that your not free because of your exams just another way to turn me down
its ok you know me well enough next time just tell me straight and clear

.

had a whole large packet of chocolate milk
slurp it all down in a shot , within an hr la .

aftermaths ?
toliet 4 fuking rounds.
wow.

took a short nap
and i was blame
" reversing "
long story not gonna go in detail

weather so cold .
i miss the days where we cuddle each other to bed .
your pink blanket its still here..

i see too much .
god please give me a miracle .
ill be good .
take anything in return .

2009-07-06T07:24:00.002+08:00

Who were you with yesterday?
- NO ONE IM ALL BY MYSELF HAHA

What woke you up this morning?
- fuking nightmate .

Is tomorrow going to be a good day?
- no , not without her .

Do you love anybody?
- yes , but.

THE PAST ::
Ever thrown up in public?
- yes

Passed out because of alcohol?
- once

What’s on your mind RIGHT NOW?
- baby i missing you T_T

What kind of home would you like?
- any place will do , as long as your there .

What do you want to be when you grow up?
-GOD & male stripper . a dream k .

Where do you see yourself in 5 years?
- married with 2 kidds

Do you like candy necklaces?
- sugars? oh yes !

When was the last time you fell over or ran into something?
- hmm 3 days back ? kana hit by durains -_-

Do you listen to music every day?
- yes

Do you still go trick or treating?
- nv been to one

What was the last thing you ate?
- 1 large bottle of chocolate milk

Are you a fast typer?
- better than average people

Whats your favorite type of soda?
- coke

Have you ever moved?
- previously limchukang =| which was yrs yrs yrs back.

Have you ever won an award?
- yes.. i think ? =x

Are you listening to music right now?
- yes , your not sorry

How long ’till your birthday?
-2 mnths

When were you the saddest in your whole life?
-ever since she left me .

What time is it?
-8.38pm

Do you use ebay to buy or sell?
- nope

Who makes you mad?
- everything . HAHAHAHAHHAWAHHAHAHA

Have you ever heard a song written about you?
- no.

Something you want to happen in 2009?
- hmm ... i hope she ..

HONESTY SECTION ::
1. Honestly, what color is your underwear?
- alot colors

2. Honestly, whats on your mind?
- u,her .

3. Honestly, what are you doing right now?
- talking to miow/ben

4. Honestly, have you done something bad today?
- yes...

5. Honestly, who is the last person you talked to on the phone?
- ben

6. Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now?
- yes.uh

7. Honestly, what makes you mad most of the time?
- jealously & freaking liars.

8. Honestly, do you bite your nails?
- always .

9. Honestly, have you had an eating disorder?
- yea. i wanna eat more

10. Honestly, do you want to see someone this very moment?
- yes , her .

11. Honestly, are you keeping a big secret now?
- yes..

12. Honestly, do you have a friend you don’t actually like?
- yes...

13. Honestly, are you in denial?
- no

14. Honestly, do you get up in the night and eat?
- depends .

15. Honestly, do you love anyone?
- yes .

16. Honestly, does anyone love you?
- HAHA MAYBE

ANGER SECTION ::
1. What do you do when you’re mad?
- rampage . berserk

2. What’s the worst thing you’ve done when you were mad?
- hit her.

3. Ever made anyone cry when you were mad?
- yes , hey im sry

4. Do you swear when you’re mad?
- yes always

CRYING SECTION ::
1.When was the last time you actually cried?
- days back ? T_T

2. Ever cried yourself to sleep?
- yes

3. Do certain songs make you cry?
- yes, frigging love song

4. What usually makes you cry?
- her

HAPPY SECTION ::
1. Are you usually a happy person?
- no

2. What makes you the happiest?
- being with her

4. Do you believe in yourself?
- no

5. When people say they think you are good looking/pretty, do you get happy?
- haha im a joke

2009-07-05T07:59:00.008+08:00

love is like falling down in the end,your're left hurt,scared ,and with the memory of it forever

2009-07-05T01:26:00.001+08:00

I can't help but cry .
It pretty much explain's what's going on in my life right now.

i jus wanna say something

frigging ........
should have gone out ..

2009-07-03T14:04:00.004+08:00

Suicide is a permanent solution to all problem

2009-07-02T14:59:00.006+08:00

/- Monday -\
Acc ben to teck whye polyclinic
meet up with bing
saw tons of friends there
had breakfast at teckwhye
alittle chat with my old mate
thank's
the only decent chat we had after so long .

she didnt msg me though as promised .z.
ha
/- Tuesday -\
Slack at boonlay then Yewtee

/-Wed-\
Cant Rmb

/-Thursday-\

didnt sleep well
because of MIOWIE .
HAHAHA

Pick durian at bukit panjan 2 man 2 Durian 2 hours

LATER ?

my heart is calling your name
so listen to what i gotta say
i realize my love for you was strong , and i miss you but now you're gone .
i've been waiting here by the phone and your pictures hanging on the wall
is this the way its meant to be ?
i try my best to satisfy
but all you do is wave me goodbye
all i ever wanted was to see you smiling.
when she turns to me and smiles
everything feel so right
you are my light in the dark
the beating in my heart
i know that i love you baby
oh baby why don't you see ?
im so lost
tell me what to do .

HAHA ITS LIKE MY HEART KANA RAM OVER BY BICYCLE
RUN OVER BY BIKE
BANG BY LORRY
AREOPLANE DROP ON ME

ok lame .

update later nights

and ill try to upload pic in every posts
i cant really describe my feelings now
so
let the pictures do the talking

and i got wonderful friends . NAH ! haha xD

2009-07-02T14:10:00.005+08:00

Let the picture do the talking

for those that dont know why im so in love with this little flower .
A common daisy flower meaning is innocence. Devoid of any sin or guilt, daisy is the perfect symbol of innocence.
Though the use of flowers for proposing love may be ancient but daisy captures the language of love best with its silence.
In earlier days a daisy from a maiden was an honorable gesture and an act of affection.

2009-07-02T07:42:00.005+08:00

When you are in love and you get hurt, it’s like a cut... it will heal, but there will always be a scar

loving you in silence

This is the last straw dont wanna hurt any more .

while waiting for my ride out .

2009-06-28T01:52:00.004+08:00

i've been sleeping for the whole day ;P haha ;x was supposed to be at st/james tonight with miow + co's .. well.. LOLOL . sorry !! hope you enjoy there ; )

Sunday - Steamboat BBQ ! YUMYUM
though ive been eating alot i dont seems to put on any weight WTF!
Monday- seeing samantha eh? HAHA

THATS ALL FOR TODAY HOPFULLY I LIVE TO SEE ANOTHER DAY AHHA!
HINTHINT

fuk u , your such a bitch . just die !

happening night

2009-06-27T07:35:00.003+08:00

as title , had dinner at 216 .
BBQ CHICKEN WINGS
then some ice cream miowie intro one .
arrgg the taste still in my mouth .
YUMYUM lei eat liao SHIOK SHIOK!

after that accompany miowie to yewtee _@#*$()@#*$ . ;x
miowie big bully go find other guy throw me one side . HOW CAN !
i was like waiting alone for like so long! =X LOL

after that supper at 302.

5 of us went limchukang after supper around 3am . 5 person 1 cabby .XD
Pick Durian's whos ideal sia?
its really dark and we only got like 1 tweenie weenie touch light luckily we met some passerby
lol i jus cant imagine 5 of us sharing one touch light .
AHAH WE SAW THIS WILD BORE SO YUMMY .

FEON EH DRUNK SAD DEN FIND ME LEI _|_.

nb so much things happen ._.
officially broke
had 18 ciggs in 6 hrs .

though i got freedom, company form great friends ...
i still feel something missing.

i really want to ask you.
are you happier with your life now?.
better off w/o me ?.

life's different.

2009-06-26T19:41:00.003+08:00

i miss you . come back . =(
♥ It isn't easy to find someone whom you truly love.

2009-06-25T10:57:00.001+08:00

i cant sleep . shit . shit . shit 11am omg.

2009-06-24T09:03:00.002+08:00

im still bloody awake !
its 9 , YES 9AM IN THE FUKING MORNING !
SUPER HYPER ACTIVE " YO " .
just learn this " yo " " yo " stuff form Samantha HAHA .
YO OK YO . YO COOL YO . !
how interesting LOL!

anyway today is a very " ahem " day .
i guess i cannot go in detail just say hell lots of fun . HAHA

you know girls this day , sigh . speechless ; ]

PLEASE RAIN .

2009-06-23T05:24:00.002+08:00

wahaha
for the past month today is the earliest day im home !
its 5 in the morning ;)
im so proud of myself yea .LOL!
miowie will be back in about 6 more hours .
miss her company alot .

alot of thing to blog lei somehow i just forget alot of thing .

was walking back home alone and i saw a
" BAT " FEAKING BIG BAT FLEW PASS ME
dont know why suddenly think of the incident we had at changi hospital
, im still wondering the ghost follow who back.choi.

AH FUK I CANT RMB ANYTHING ABOUT YESTERDAY .
besides what i makan T_T

eh noddles ? 2 burger ... lol cant rmb anyshit .

TODAY

had dinner at cck mac
saw merylyn " typo " at tw mac . 3 years no see ; )
shld have taken her number or something LOL!

what i markan

MC SPICY MEAL + KOKA NOODLES + CHAR SIEW CHEE CHONG FANG and alot ciggs.

have been eating alot hoping to build better body size and of cause smoking like breathing air recently
so ... i brought 2 packets HAHAHAHA .

saw alot of " YP " young immature brats go eat some grass la fresh beans .
seriously youself think your " cool "
and that is if your " COOL " , which is no .
this sentence abit chim right ?

BCAC - BUAY COOL ACT COOL .

lastly .
reira i hope your feeling better .
otherwise tml steamboat no you no fun
sibo ? ; ))

and

.....
im glad your doing well . your happy im happy =)))

2009-06-22T22:40:00.001+08:00

bike sibo ok lo i go enroll le . _|_

2009-06-21T21:14:00.002+08:00

is there anyone there that actually understand me at all ? .

its fathers day.
mum said dad fell down , hurt badly .
but he refused to see doctor .
im to blame? .

i fuking hate you seriously .

2009-06-20T19:42:00.000+08:00

2009-06-20T07:27:00.003+08:00

as usual home at sunrise
cheated down to reira place ;x wheres bestie?!!
LOLOLOLOLOL

let me share something about my diet recently
SI BEI YAO AHH!

had dinner around 10 at 163 .

1 bowl of slice fish noodles + a place of charsiew zhu chang feng

around 1am

chicken burger

around 6 in the morning
2 eggs + a slice of bread + a cup of tea AND LASTLY charsiew zhu chang feng

to me its alot . i just feel like eating .

have been smoking alot recently

i guess my body is slowly failing me bits by bits , little by little .

sigh ,its lame or rather weird asking myself why am i doing this ?

thank's for the company today .
reira,ben,wq,lt,cb

2009-06-19T16:45:00.005+08:00

"illusion never change to something real
a dream will never be a dream if it was real "

was out last night again
thanks bros
xr,deep
DEEP especially
i shall mention you here in my so not awesome blog

its been months since i see you well yea
thanks for making yourself free yesterday
thanks for the company
thanks for the words
thanks for everything

though....
i hated you for loving her !
( kidding )

its nice to see old friends once in awhile sit back talk about the past
talk about what we did
silly things we did
ahhh it was enjoyable .

haha and its deep ever first experience riding on a bike .

slack all the way till 4am ? =|

went home i guess i slp around 8? in the morning .

random stuff

i don't need alot friends , just true friends.
where the fuck are you
Dont just see blindly with your eyes
i dont think i have much time left
this i promise you
i cant believe this is happening to me
..

TO : clara

i hope we clear those little misunderstanding between us.

good luck all the best .

i just finally begin to see the real you .

2009-06-18T16:10:00.005+08:00

DAYS ARE NOT EVEN GETTING BETTER
which idiot tell me TIME HEALS.

i cant imagine how my days are like ...
mist..

2009-06-17T19:17:00.006+08:00

i rather not know anything , seriously .
nv ever expected a girl could ruin all of our friendship's.
the one who added fuels and top it up with your lies
thank's .

seriously you know NUTS about me
no doubt your such a devil . i shall not mention who ever he/she is .
next time i will just ignore everything .

.
a medium pre-predicted everything .

2weeks back *
medium ; go out at night sure get in to trouble
medium ; dont keep listen to what people say
medium ; you will get involved with police thing

ytd
medium ; you almost kana wack by 7-8 people few days back

thanks for being there " god " .

It wont do both of u good this way..is running away from reality..Be strong to face it...and u will get a unexpected outcome

2009-06-16T20:54:00.002+08:00

yarwns

2009-06-16T17:49:00.005+08:00

i was talking to ben yesterday hey we have been out like almost everynight .
nono infact everynight .
i lost track of the day's.
not knowing anything is so much fun

though somethings did happen
i try to set things right , i guess too much misunderstanding
nvm , at least i know who are the " steady " ones.
this msg really cheer me up tons .

"hehe , i still dote on you although i always whack you okay"
coming out form a ahlian .( kinder joy girl ) AHAHA!
THANK'S, THOUGH YOU HURT ME LIKE ALOT .

i love being home late " early" sleep jitao nxt day 6pm liao
repeated process for the past few days .

honesty im not sad over friends issue
you know after quarrel's we will understand each other better .
whos there , and who's not .
im not going to hear what each other say
i just have to believe single one of them
afterall trust is the hardest to build
and also the hardest to maintain
i just hope they also trust me alittle

"god" warned me before
if i wanna go out late at night prepare to get in to trouble lor
please be with me
ill be a good boy.

lastly ,
deep sorry wasnt able to help out in the event's
i hope you understand.

Down on fever
go out ?
yes , no

2009-06-15T05:41:00.005+08:00

crazy night , body damm sticky
puke all over the place ( thanks reira )
wanted to bath just too lazy
fighting over a girl is totally not worth it .
honesty say wad gum next time things sure more complicated
i dont know if you guys see this
its fuking dumb
i regard you as friend , i dont know why it hurts that bad ..

disappointed , yes disappointed about myself .
no more night life
no more smoking
no more drinking .

so much things to say , so much things i cannot say .. blah wadeva nonsense .

maybe being alone suits me better .

why when everything starts to get better .......
is disappointed.

2009-06-13T08:41:00.005+08:00

just home 8.40am to be exact .
i dont know how to describe my day

HAPPY ? yes .
SAD ? yes .

4 of cus
xr,sh,lw

win a couple of bucks at turf city
horse racing was damn exciting
2:3 rounds
ended at 10.30

head over 163 for supper

i saw this girl , she left a very very deep impression in me
the very first girl that i wanted to know her that badly
she look like one of my ex.
well , yea obviously rejected
reasons she say shes older than me . blah.
thanks Edmund for you effort though.
she left .
continue slacking for another 30mins
i told myself
maybe she at b.plaza mac lei ? maybe i will see her again lei .
then again she just had her supper at 163 she will go plaza mac mah?
surprising she really at plaza mac
LOL
maybe Clara was right i too hamji .
the only thing i know about her
nee ann poly student
damn regretted , at least msn or something would do .
image of you stuck deep down my head .

went for a lan gaming session at ten mile
slack all the way till ben arrive
unpleasant things happen .
.....

my leg hurts .. its bleeding part of my nails came off , ouch .
mere cuts scratches is nothing
what hurt most is my heart ..

mum , im sorry i know i have been going home late
i know your worried , i know what its like to be
thinking of someone
caring for someone
when that someone just freaking don't give a damn about it
i need company .
give me abit time .
abit more .

i just hope that someone will be there when i need .
someone that give me the feeling like what she used to give me
please come soon .

lastly .
i hope your throat is better , i never ever though of hurting you .

im not myself .
i wonder why it hurts so bad today
maybe something bad happen

thank's for those who care .

2009-06-12T16:47:00.002+08:00

" i just need someone that will laugh at my lamest joke "
in another words love me .
even though my jokes are cold & lame , she will still laugh at it .
thats love .LOL

maybe you simply dont understand it , well yea..

and sorry for ruining you birthday bbq ,
next time you wanna invite people or whoever it is
dont add
" dont say i never invite you all " .
bucs of a few parwns
" I GOT ONE FWEN HAVEN EAT LEI "
" GIF U ALL IS A WASTE "

and im not jealous , CARE AS A FRIEND .
i just hope you got good company
your old friends here all know you so long , you fuk them up as if...wadever
what i cant get over my heart ?
laughs.

wed , meet up wif co's xr,ben,sh,miow,sotong went lot1 pasar malam den headed to clara bdae
after that head over old changi hospital
16 people , 14 went in .
erm .. lol.
very disappointing day .

thursday, 163 wif ben,sotong,l.t,miow for supper LOL
went back to ben hse .
sh, edmund drop by
slack till 6 in the morning

im childish .
i just hope the next time we " meet " again , no more quarreling etc.

IM OFF TO BUAR PEI LIAO , HOPFULLY I EARN SOME FAST CASH FOR TONIGHT !
wish me luck !

2009-06-11T22:17:00.003+08:00

yea im always at fault . blah what ever .

i just need someone that will laugh at my lamest joke .

seriously your really childish too.

2009-06-09T12:19:00.003+08:00

quoted form feonie

Sometimes two people have to fall apart to realise how much they need to fall back together (:

2009-06-09T12:19:00.001+08:00

ur too beautiful to describe...i think ur an angel

2009-06-09T12:04:00.005+08:00

heres the solo post about feon , popo requested ;x
knowing you for the pasts months
being with you was great
all this time i was thinking , hey are you my fated soulmate
though you hug , kiss
or even slpt with others on bed
i dont mind
because somehow i jus simply love the way you are not who you are .
i enjoy your neh buaying my face
those little things that drive me high
and again
you may be such a whore , bitch slut
but hey i love you .
Beyond words
Beyond imagination

LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL

2009-06-08T20:23:00.002+08:00

SUPER BORING LEI .

sat night , went drinking under ben's blk with teck , mioow , ben , bing .

heh it was fun , well.. maybe .

im slowly addicted to drinking little by little bits by bits

even though i vomited & the hangover suk's , am still enjoying it .

yesterday afternoon slack with miow,ben .
went home
then
went back to the same place , slack again wif xuanrui at night .

i counted within 24 hrs i been his place for like 6-7 times .
like woah .

today ._. , rot whole day at home meeting ben for awhile soon . WEEET .

i always wanted the best for you , you always doubt me .
thinking i wanna harm you etc .

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i don't know what to do
im always in the dark

2009-06-07T15:57:00.003+08:00

AHHH
VODKA + RED BULL + BEER = SOCK'S

i miss that cat sioh .

tada wadda blahba

2009-06-06T23:38:00.007+08:00

IM HOME AGAIN ,
imagine walking all the way form farjar to tenmile 3 times and twice back .
going 4th later KEKE .

( lighting to cover my flaws) =x
ok there my bone my ribcage ..
im not a hairy guy

ok i admit im damm skinny
people do changes over time
everything remains
the only changes is what that is in the heart

i bet no one catch what im trying to say
abit chim right or in another word too dumb to understand ?
HAHA AM KIDDING

i love prank calling people
im " you"
im "me"
yea thats me actually .
dont hate me k

all those people i call damm fierce
" hello who are you , im not in a good mood right now, fuck "
LOL

wanted to upload some pics i took
bluetooth not working
cable missing

oh well..

OK WRKING ALREADY

gangster bike
White + purple

accident ._.

left Alan , Alex,Ben , meowie

piglet with helm xD

me & whoever it is .
AA

2009-06-06T18:46:00.005+08:00

abit misleading , double click for a clearer image.

Friday , after school we head towards singapore poly to see mei mei LOL
late evening went bugis to grab xuan's bike stuff .
dinner at senja grand wif xuans co .
zao here zao there
wanted to go BQ & DBL O .
ah bugets.
slack wif miowie ,ben,sh at tw ,had abit of beers .
[ miowie owe us crabs ] .
AND FOR THE LAST TIME STOP CALLING ME SKINNY .

today go gamble horse at kranji ._. .
miowie predicted all wrong =X
weak.

home swit home will be seeing xr later

Happy Bdae Javier & speedy recovery xr.

lastly .
FEED ME WITH LOVE !

2009-06-04T23:05:00.005+08:00

fainted in school today
was it low blood pressure ?

had a really short basketball game ,
wasnt feeling really well
on the way to cafeteria ,
theres this sudden pain in my head
quickly sit on the nearest chair ,
was so exhausted .
those that know me should know that i hardly sweat
wah lan eh machiam kana drench under the rain
boxers machiam urine on it so wet
LOL
feel like vomiting so quickly walk out my eyes suddenly went blank couldnt see whats around me bang on this wall twice ._.
my legs bcum like jelly~ wiggles
heng i got good pals , they ran out and shower me wif love
LOL
,THANKS HOR Special thanks to Pals jiexun,xuan,jinli .
and
RED BULL

i feel so weak.

wheres the me .

had 6 pieces of BREAD for dinner . arg long story .

im utter uper ultra super disappointed ...

tml friday , hopfully ..
no drinking, i needa save up abit.

a piece of good news , HAHA MAY SOUND LIKE A JOKE TO YOU ALL THOUGH

Form
"relationship with feon "
to
" married to feon"

2009-06-04T00:18:00.003+08:00

jialet , pon 2 days school monday & wed .
MY GRADES AINT IMPROVING NOT EVEN A SINGLE BIT

Thursday , chill with meowie gao ben alan .
why am i always being bullied =(
and meowie if you read this
STOP CALLING ME SKINNY
LOL.

went to this weighting machine
guess my weight !
BLOODY PAD
AM 45 KG
really need to do something about it
and yea that weight gainer stuff better works lik magic
otherwise i have to consult dog'tor ,
lets hope there isint any worm in my stomach .eek

today
fixed xuan's left signal light, phew .
dinner at tenmile with alex,alan,xuan,ben
that alan had 2 bugers , 5 siew mai and a plate of dunno wad rice
woah .
i wish i could take that much in

have been home late lately
me : marmie i wan a bike!
mum: aiya you also not guai if not no problem

anyone free next monday xpically tuesday ? XD

2009-06-03T00:22:00.002+08:00

yep , My very first clubbing event's that ill be involved!
who needs extra cash ?

currently seeking for 30 people or more
to sell tickets

2009-06-02T08:16:00.000+08:00

If you love something,
let it go.
If it comes back to you,
its yours forever.
If it doesnt,
then it was never meant to be.

2009-05-31T22:22:00.003+08:00

looking for the above item , which suits me ?
thanks !

MOVIIES ANYONE !

2009-05-31T21:13:00.012+08:00

had my very first experience starting up xr bike & 3 person riding on a single bike .
of cause i fell off the ground , little bruises over my legs and arms .
gosh , xr bike left light drop off .
feel bad because he never drop his bike before and he just got his bike painted =((.
he wasnt angry at all lor , phew .

after that we ride down the carpark '3 person <- LOL wed butterfactory ? coming friday , Saturday , sunday do what lei ? i haven really enjoy myself recently , sigh . hopefully coming weekends my friends got abit little time for me ; (
LETS GET THIS PARTY STARTED
this week suks totally.
sad lei sad lor sad la

English & Chinese version
simple words strong lyrics
took form jo dion blog ;]

so love~

pals.dont fall for it

2009-05-31T01:09:00.004+08:00

this week totally suck , am not childish
dont know why mood swing

going out for supper later , lazy sioh
waiting for co replies .

dont know why some people so cheesepie, full of evil intentions . motive .

obviously know i with them still say only wan meet them dont wan meet me

then i what ,alone? try your best tell everyone im a jerk or whatever

honesty i couldn't care lesser

sometimes alex words may be harsh , hes too straight forward . well .. sigh.

loving you is hard.

2009-05-30T15:48:00.003+08:00

ARRR its only 4pm BORING AH , i need a new group to hang out with .

Paging Night Stalkers <- lol

anyway " daz " really not nice mar?
so far only bestie agreed nice others jitao DONT SUIT U LA TOK . =(

how about ENZO ? jepun name =x

woot off to trim my hair alittle ciaos

to do list for today:
eat every 2 hrs
cut hair
eh head town
den den sigh.

ciaos

2009-05-30T02:21:00.004+08:00

i wan his hair style!

and his body !!

TALKING TO REIRA NOW . HEHE . HAHA
if you see this your an idiot

2009-05-29T21:31:00.004+08:00

ok done with my blog , yes simple somehow i feel something missing ?

before i start i've to agreed some people are really super despo

have been going home late for the past few days
life geting better by the days , i guess ?

memories failing me

Monday - cant rmb
Tuesday - cant rmb either
Wed - Night , Jurong for supper
Thursday - Meet up wif ben ,dinner at bp
then meet up with angela @ tw
after that miowie @ her place till 3am +

i always dream to be GOD .
of cause aim high la otherwise still call dream mar?
ok lame ambition
LOL
now i only dream to be a HAWT HUNK

i want eat fatfat
bestie suggested mac spicy bao form macdonalds
lol " BAO "

im looking at mass/weight gainer for faster effects
3 months $700+ dollar . oh man .

my friends are your friends
too much misunderstanding
ill never stop you form going out with my friends
i've no rights either
but please dont say such things like
" dont ask tok along "
thanks

guess i will be home today

look forward for friday now
spoil my fuking night